It really wasn’t that much of a surprise. You could see it coming from last night. It really did not look good and a part of the world just stopped breathing. It was like a gut punch you were not prepared for. And for a brief moment, darkness consumed me.

That was the night before. I thought this is it. The end of my chance at happiness. I would once again be living in a drab and colorless world. I would be alone and unloved. Fear, hatred and distrust would be the emotions of the future. 

It’s the end of the world…

Wait a second. Where is this all coming from? Where are all these depressing thoughts coming from? This isn’t me. Why am I being sucked into this dank dark hell? How much does this really affect my life?

It doesn’t…

My life goes on. I woke up this morning and the sun was shining. I felt good. I had a good night’s sleep. I got myself ready and went downstairs and had a nice breakfast. I listened to some music and looked at my calendar to see what I had planned for the day. It was a typical ordinary day. I was happy.

So I am doing my own thing. I am reading and writing. I will be working on music and setting up the music room for the next practice. Nothing has changed in my life. I am doing what I want and I am happy. 

I have no control over the events that shape our world. I only have control over my life. I have control over my thoughts, my stories from the past, my experiences from the past. I choose what to let in and what to release. I choose what is important to me and what I can let go.

I choose my happiness over everything else. Life will go on. It always does. There will be events that will shape and change the future. I may have to adjust my lifestyle. I may have to think outside the box. 

I will have to stop listening to the noise…

I need to turn off the external noises. Last night I let the external noises consume me. I let the noises control the way I thought. I let the external noises dictate how my life was going to be from this day forward. And everything was negative.

I fell asleep depressed, upset and scared. I let the noises win.

Then the sun came up to remind me that the world is still here and that I am an important part of this world. If I didn’t exist, the world would be short of one unique individual. I play a part in this world. I matter and I have to make the most of my life.

And the world wants me to be happy.

So today I turned off the noises. And to the best of my ability I will keep them off. I will live happy and content in a world that loves and appreciates me. Now you may think I am sticking my head in the sand like an ostrich. But I am not. I am contributing to this world in my own special unique way.

And I am happy.

To be continued…